covered

the fun and joy
covered my heart
it spread to my eyes
and my mouth
until soom i didn't
realize
how empty i felt
it covered me
and bundled me up
into a small cocoon

when you knocked
i didn't answer
and you said every little
pretty word i could
have ever wanted
but never thought
about timing
a small amount of
fear was growing
and ripping the cocoon
not completely

i laid there half covered
and half happy
and half worried
i gave you my heart
and now we both can't see it
the worry got to
be so much
that the fun
ended
but my heart
still covered
but not by any cocoon

but by a protective
shield i had made
unknowingly
that will not go away
that will not forgive
as much as
i want to
time will help
and fix it all
because it is what i want
and know you do to