i have always been like this
searching for the once person
who wants to be around me all the time
who wants to care about me all the time
who will think of me as much as i think of them
and this isnt just guys this is bestfriends too
ever since i was little i never felt good
there has always been something missing
maybe its all the tv and movies
with the happy families or the lovey dovey couples
everytime i find someone amazing they turn out to be
the crappiest people ever.
or they dont want me
i have had the most amazing 2 months
i have never felt happier
when i was depressed like 3 years ago
i always dream that certain things would happen
and they never did i thought they never would
but they did seriously in the past two months
everything i wanted
now im just dwelling
hard on every single insecurity
im super scared
you wont wanna be with me.

by the time you let me in
by the time you want me to be yours
ill already be in love with you
ill love your passion
ill love the way you tilt your head to the side and give me that look
ill love how you always asking me what i'm thinking
ill love when you pull me closer with the front loops of my jeans to fit against you
ill love how you nuzzle me for a kiss
and how you always play the cutest music

i cant handle it ive been so good for so long
i just want to feel cared about
i want you to hold me
touch mee