my heart is blue and yellow

i could stand in the middle
and turn around
the world is spinning
the city is big
can you hear the future calling you?
can you feel that this is where you belong?
this is what i want to do
i want to do so much
i want to have so much
i want to be happy
and have options
i want to learn everything
i'm trying to get there to that point
all i need is someone there
to hold my hand on my way up
to motivate me more
to tell me things will be okay
you'll do great
until i find you
i'm gonna go dance
my heart out
its my happiness.
love deedee
let climb the hill
holding hands
all the way up

sliding down south city

the sky was dark
but not dark enough
i could see the pigment in the dirt
every leaf felt like it was stuck to my jacket
we dug our fingers into the ground
the front of our shoes were dusty
i didn't get to sit on any letter
but it was best that way
i want to keep that memory
on the way down
we slid
our butts were dusty
my jacket was a goner

oh really

"so you've been alone all weekend?"
"well most of it"
"and you're okay with that?"
"its not really my choice, but i'm fine"
your smile fills my head
with happiness
these thoughts are only temperary
due to assumptions.
i'm assuming right now.

my love is too much

my love is too much
my love is too harshi how can i express my feelings
when i have so much love inside of me
i'll drown you
suffocate you
with hugs and kisses
maybe its for the best
that i stay home
that i sleep alone
that i write poetry
and paint
and only dream of you and me
side by side on the beach
love deedee

2 monsters

i look down
i wish those were yours
i had dreams all lastnight
ones about every which way
i could have ruined things
i just hope
that none of them
are even the slightest bit
true.

i listened to the lyrics
then the music
then together
it felt like i was listening
to someone elses happiness
your happiness
i fell asleep
i only woke up once

quickly!!!!!!!!!!1

she runs through the cold air
its dark enough to see the stars
the wind loud in her ears
she can still hear a bit of the lyrics
"side by side"
your sleeve falls down a little
i smile
so wide
i thought maybe you were watching me
so i hide it quickly
hey baby
you're making me forget.
fuck dude for realz
my chest feels like its going to explode
but its good. :D
love deedee

forget those holes in your heart

you were couting
sheep
i counted mermaids
i brought us
to the ocean
my nails
had tiny seashells
my hair
was down to
my fin
you heard me sing
i saw your ship
i wanted to come on
but i needed your kiss
i woke up
you were still there
thats all i need.

lets walk on the beach/you can teach me

the scent lingers and thats where i'll be ill sleep peacefully
although the doubt sits heavy
in the back of my mind
i can be naive baby

shoulders shake from left to right

the owl was fed the blanket with the
neon aliens and the pink fuzzy pillow
were clouds
phone beeps i'm not getting out of my cocoon
for anything
i'm so warm and happy
but it was you i knew it i reach out quicky
and grab my phone total peace of mind.
light'r up
light'r up

love deedee
i'm roamin' in my mind baby
time to wash out the dye ;)i'm super blue

i'll be thankful

baby my maple
and your maple are different
like i always say
we can work through it
but what i really mean
is ill ignore it
someone will always get hurt
i'll sacrafice
myself for you
i want to
protect
your heart

oct 1

keep me on my toes baby
keep me waiting
i'm nervous
anxious
and happy
i'm always smiling
when i'm with
you
but worrying what to say

lets sail

my bed
your bed
i feel like
i'm sailing
sleeping is
my security
stomach
down
my heart
beating
against the matress
this is how it should feel

lovefest

was germs
and dirty wind
boobs
drum and bass
drinking
ugly people
and peeing in the streets
lovefest was
craving for your attention
lovefest was also dying
to hear the music
that makes me feel
not as empty.
love deedee

yesterdays makeup

yesterdays clothes
yesterdays hair style
things are going to disapoint me today
please don'tits funny how things work
a year agoit would have made
me the happiest person ever
i've got better things
and better friends
and interests now.
love deedee

i fell asleep

feed these bones lets fill up on life
i'll hold you tight even if i'm not the one
but will you wipe away those tears?
cause baby i cant stop crying.

bones

the cloud wouldn't lift
first we thought it was how heavy i was
but that makes no sensehella bones
then we thought it was broken
but all along it was the fear weighing it down
ill cry a few tears
and fly off.
spring was full of pain
the summer was full of heart break
what next.
lets dance.