i wanted to

feel the cold ocean
and dig my feet in the hot sand
i wanted the sun in my eyes
and u holding my hand
want want want

i also wanted to hang out with shwazye boy
but he ditched me again
its time to understand
thats its not okay to feel used to being ditched

love deedee

i feel like i need the sun to shine

head to ur chest
i can hear ur heart beat
i hold my breath
so u couldnt
your sent lingers
this is what i meant

this is the strongest connection
i've felt with someone for awhile
its not just attraction.

Midnight on a beach in the Mediterranean/and i miss you

minus the bear is so good.
i am too drunk to be texting you.

no poetry can ever express how i feel right now
you broke my heart
you just disappeared.

rodney told me i was wasting my time

ill call you bear
and you'll remember everything

ill only have sweet dreams because
you said too

someone please help me forget

hi chewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwws

we ate them all today
i'm going to bed
and i'm gonna snuggle with this little poodle
xox

i bought my matt and kim ticket :P

:P

laughing
till our faces feel warm
you grab my side
pull me in closer
chest to chest
your lips brush by mine
you look at me and giggle
teasing
i pull you in and press my lips on yours
glitter
stuck
to remember


bitch dont try to steal my kitty swagger.

comparison

fuck.
my list slowly twirls down the drain.

i compare you everyday
i remember stars at coyote point
and lights on sign hill
i remember wearing pants to popscene
thinking "who do i even need to impress"
i brought my phone so i can text you while dancing
you said "you really like my attention huh?"
maybe the night you slept over
maybe you decided then
that i was important anymore.

its a sick obsession
someday ill meet someone better
i've been holding back sober tears for a week now
and maybe i dont care anymore.

whats the fucking point

my life is completely over.
theres no point in anything anymore.
i'm trying to climb up from this negative bullshit
i had the worst things ever happen to me
i lost everything
i realized how much everything was hurting me
and i'm trying to get back up there
to be positive and live my life happy
and i'm doing it and things are looking up
but hey i made one misstake
and now my mom is taking my life away from me
everything that is helping me cope with all the bullshit
is gone.
she wants me to sit in my room again
she wants me to gain weight
and sleep all day long
fuck it its over.